'Hey we missed you there' says Darcy finally putting away her lipstick and phone, interrupting Sadie mid prattle.Sadie blinks in confusion, nobody interrupts her but i guess Darcy has had enough. 'Told you guys i wasn't up for any socialising' i say lamely. 'As if' screeches Sadie (oh well i guess it was too much to hope that she never talks again *sigh*) 'its because of Mattie isn't it?' she continues oblivious of my wince as she is shouting to the whole hall and partly because i don't like it when she calls him Mattie. It sounds too familiar which is normal considering they are neighbors but I'm not in a position to consider anything.
Darcy is usually more receptive to my moods and she shushes Sadie (as impossible as this feat is, she actually manages it). Sadie looks like she is chocking on the gazillions of words stuck on her throat but i ignore it and walk to the quad and sit on the grass and remove my laptop. As it powers up my gaze wanders around and i see Matt....with Louisa!! wth!! Louisa is one of my friequaintances (someone a level higher than an acquaintance but never quite a friend) and she knows of the situation between Matt and I. Maybe she is telling him off, i reason with myself. I quickly glance in their direction and its just in time to see the witch run her fingers through his hair and giggle like an idiot. If our country had cheerleader, Louisa would be it. she's perky, beautiful, popular and an incorrigible flirt.
'That bitch' says Darcy plopping down next to me. Sadie is talking to one of her band friends a little distance off and seems oblivious to the drama enfolding which is a good thing because that girl has no verbal breaks and might just tell Matt off and let the whole school in on the secret.I smile gratefully at Darcy and start working on my Ancient Dynasties History 201 term paper. 'Don't look up but Matt is staring at you' , Darcy says. The downside of it is that when someone tells you not to look up, you do it anyway, kind of like the wet paint don't touch thing. I look up and catch Matt's horrified stare and Louisa's triumphant grin. Shit!
Matt starts walking towards us with Louisa tagging along behind him almost skipping in happiness That harpy! i know I shouldn't have told her. well technically Sadie had blurted it out and I had to explain. Still i could have brushed it off without explaining. Oh well. too late.
Matt is almost upon us and I panic and do the first thing that comes to mind, beat it. I slam my laptop and get up without packing it in my backpack and flee to the dorms. I know i will have to face Matt but I'm nowhere near ready. In my rush I bump into Kevin, 'Whoa Billie, where's the fire?' he jokes, i glare at him and then i can't help it anymore and promptly burst into tears. 'Hey, hey baby girl. I was just joking. you can bump into me any day' he says wrapping me in a bear hug.
Kevin leads me to a park bench and holds me until i stop crying. By this time i am embarrassed and I'm thankful for my dark skin because i would be red. Kevin knows better than to ask what's wrong but he looks at me with eyebrows raised silently asking. 'I'm just a bit overwhelmed that's all' I say looking at everywhere but him. 'uh huh' he says clearly not believing a word i said. A shadow falls on me and I look up. Crap. Matt does not look amused to find me almost on Kevin's lap. 'Let go of my girlfriend' he barks to Kevin whose hand tighten on my shoulder in response. 'That's not what I heard dude. you guys broke up. And I'm guessing she's in this state because of you so letting you near her is not an option I'm willing to consider.' Oh great! The dogs have found a new bone! The situation is so tense as they glare at each other that I'm half expecting one of them to whip out a glove and slap the other on the cheek. Beam me up Scotty! I'm lost in the world of imagination where I see both of the pulling out their swords to defend my honor in their breeches and powdered wigs. The imagery is so funny that I giggle out loud and they both turn to face me like I'm nuts. 'uh, um i just remembered I need to be somewhere' I stammer and run again away from Matt the second time.
This time he is clearly not giving up and he catches up with me in seconds. I guess it helps that he's tall, I think wryly as I feel his hand on my shoulder. 'We really need to talk Billie.' he says stopping me. I sigh and nod and follow him to his apartment off campus. 'Louisa said you were pregnant' Matt says without preamble. Oh well, it was gonna come up sooner than later. I look away and nod before I catch on something he said, were. 'Wait, what do you mean were?' I ask looking at him for the first time. His gray eyes are looking at me disappointedly. Hey! I recoil back as if he slapped me. Its not like its my fault alone. I mean it does take two to tango. 'She also told me you had an abortion!' he states with his lips in a thin line. for a second I'm distracted as I stare at those lips which always drove me to distraction 'Billie!' he admonishes with the shadow of a grin when he sees where i have been staring at.'How could you do something so monstrous to our baby?' Wait, What? 'What the hell are you talking about? I didn't get an abortion. I couldn't do that without telling you first. and what do you mean monstrous? I'm only 20! I'M NOT READY TO BE A MOTHER!' I shout. 'whoa calm down. Lets talk about this.' He says trying to soothe me but I'm too gone to notice anything apart from anger. 'why don't you go talk to Louisa who seems to know everything that does not concern her. If I want an abortion, I am getting it and nothing you can say is going to change my mind!' I say as I slam the door behind me. Hard.
