THE WORLD IS WAITING

Its your chance. Unleash your potential Blah blah blah the world is waiting. Just reach out and grab.... STOP IT!

Its no use trying to reason with the voices in my head and those out of it. Of course i know the world is out there. I know i shouldn't let chances slip past my fingers.

Alladin probably told Jasmine when she got on the carpet, 'get ready for the ride of your life', well just before he told her, 'hold on tightly'. I don't know if Alladin meant ride of your life literally as just a magic carpet ride which is also a ride of your life(i mean, how many times do you get to ride a magic carpet???).

Jasmine was brave to take a chance. the carpet was something she'd never used before and i wouldn't have blamed her for balking out.(its a flying cloth for God's sake!!).But that's how we pass awesome(I don't believe i used that word) chances. If Jasmine had not joined Alladin and(what was that monkey called again?? Harun???), she would have missed out on a chance at a love so great that 2000 years later we still talk about and on the adventure of a lifetime(make that 1000 lifetimes because I don't know anyone alive who can claim having been on a magic carpet. not even Harry Potter). 

I love my life but i can honestly say that it sucks. i can never pull a Jasmine because im a coward, hence the name of the blog. But this doesnt mean that I dont hope. hope that Alladin will come on his carpet(minus Jasmine ofcourse) and take me for the ride of my life, literally.I only hope i will have the courage to stretch out my arm and say, 'Im ready. Lets go' 

chronicles of the she coward

Eminem's song 'not afraid' is ringing through my head. ironically im clearly afraid. im not talking about phobia, or maybe its a new type of phobia discovered recently. anyway, thats besides the point. im petrified of taking chances. yeah, yeah, i know you  are thinking boooring, cliche and a few other choice words i will not use. sure everybody is afraid of taking chances. trying to tep out of my comfort zone, i recently enlisted the services of an astrologer. i mean, there's that human feeling of wanting to know what is in your future. predictably i chickened out at the last step because part of me wants to let my life play out  unchanged and unexpectedly and the other part, the larger part, was like, hmm, what if i dont like what i see? what if my future is right and i get comfortable waiting for things to play out and then they dont. well long story short, i couldnt go ahead with it but the one thing i remember from all the hogwash she was telling me is 'you have great untaped potential.'  you are thinking so? well, she was right in a way. there are so many things i know i can do but i dont do because i am afraid im not good enough. i have been offered chances at love but no, im very afraid. what if i mess it up? why me? why now? the questions are endless. everytime i say, 'this time im taking chances' only to pull back at the last minute and plead lame excuses. i'd like to say that this time i will take the chance but i know myself tooooo well to buy into that. im not saying i wont change and try to grab opportunities as the come my way, im just saying let me do it my way. i will get there.